This is quite possibly my last weekend to work in theatre. I designed the lights for Edward Albee’s The Zoo Story at Austin College – and I JUST found out that one of my photographs of the show accompanies the official press release! It is a very bittersweet time. Auditions for our next show, You Can’t Take It With You, is this coming Monday, but I have decided that I need to take this time to focus on my photography. It was a difficult decision to come to, but I know it is absolutely the right one.
Another difficult decision I made this week is in regards to my series for Art Senior Conference. I had originally proposed to explore the relationship between women and their makeup through the application of tribal warpaint, an idea I’m still very interested in, but I have to put it aside for now. I realized this week that I simply do not yet possess the skill nor the time to fully realize my vision and am enough of a perfectionist that to dedicate myself exclusively to an endeavor that may, in my eyes, fail is a slight waste of time. So I am modifying my intent for the semester and shelving the warpaint idea, instead I’m tossing around a few possibilities, like a pictorial love letter to my hometown. I recognize that to grow as a photographer, I need to not only play to my strengths, but confront my weaknesses and while my biggest weakness is portraiture, my strengths lie in what I’m calling Sherman Still Life.
which would be an AWESOME title for a show… I really don’t know which direction to go… Maybe I should meet with Tracz and talk it out or maybe I should meditate on it more. Or better still, maybe I should continue to challenge myself while photographing everything and see what themes shake out.
Feel free to take a look at an assortment of my work. I would love outside opinions!
Continuing our work with unusual cameras (last week was pinhole – which I will post soon), my current assignment is toy cameras! I’ve borrowed the little black Slim Devil from the Art Dept. and am told to expect wide-angle shots with a little more lens flair. The Diana was a birthday present and this will be my first time to actually play with it, now that I can actually develop 120 b&w
I have to send off my rolls of color, but the Art Dept should pay for it!!! and I haven’t used the little red since I was in the single digits, so I’m excited to see the results. The best part about my little toy cameras: I can easily fit all 3 into my purse!
I’m thinking of using this time, when I can find free time, to start WarPaint as self portraits and working outwards from there. If only color film processing was a little easier/cheaper, I’d do my whole series this way!
Submitted my artistic intent and research proposal for Art Senior Conference yesterday! But it didn’t just stop there. I was one of two who actually showed up for class, so Tracz decided to spend an inordinate amount of time trying to understand what I was trying to accomplish. And I admit that there is a lot going on in my series, but Tracz is a hard man to read most of the time (i.e. I can never tell if his amusement – his primary expression – is condescending or sincere, but I can always tell when he’s flustered). Seeing as how I am not even a declared major/minor and am taking the course for a quarter credit, I was pretty shaken when he let us out, only to realize that my first crit is next Wednesday! This should be interesting…
Ok, I admit I have been avoiding the blog just a little. But try as I might to convert my not-quite-thesis into legible blog posts, I just can’t do it. I’m too close to it, even still. I’m working on a couple ideas for further posting.
OH! and I may be submitting it to the AC research journal for publication!!!!!!!!! (!!!!!)
Additionally, much of my creative/photographic energy has, of late, been consumed by my two (!) photo-heavy art courses, Advanced Photography and Art Senior Conference. I’m currently writing my project proposal/intent for Conference and will post it when I have it completed. What I can say about it now, however, is that I am really passionate about the idea and the feedback I’ve gotten from other women has only furthered my dedication to the project. My prof, on the other hand, has been less than inspired when I’ve discussed it with him. Hopefully my statement will sway him and I’ll be permitted a Senior Show! *fingers crossed*