moving forward; looking back

It seems almost cliche to write a “year in review” post, especially since my writing has been so sparse, but that’s not going to stop me! I’m ready to say goodbye to what’s quite possibly the most densely packed year I’ve ever experienced, for better or worse.

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For me, at least, 2012 was a year of change. The End of an Era. (many eras!) It was a year of loss. The close of a chapter. I graduated from college (the end of the “formal education” era) with my BA in Communications and Political Science. I also lost several people very close to me, or the ones I love, as well as my two dear pets, throughout the year.

But the year also presented me with many opportunities. I found a job that really excites me and constantly keeps me on my toes. I’ve reignited old friendships and discovered new ones. I’ve started drinking brewed coffee and beer! I’ve traveled (a cruise to Cozumel and a trip to Boston/Mt. Washington for a wedding)! I got a new iPhone AND an iPad!

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The best part? I’ve learned a lot from 2012.

For many reasons, 2013 is the start of something new. It’s the Chinese Year of the Snake (hell yeah!). It’s my first year on my own-ish (it still counts, despite having moved back home). Last year was a year en flux; I never really seemed to catch my footing. It was hard to find my rhythm, hard to know who I was or what any of it meant. But I’m taking owning this opportunity for new. And a very large part of that is how I engage with photography.

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I’ll say it: I took myself too seriously. I took my photography too seriously. (I took a lot too seriously.) And much of my 2012 was spent grappling with the conundrum of many a photographer: where does “capturing the world” end, and “experiencing the world” begin. I’m still working to figure that out, but this time, I’m not going to deny myself of my camera (yeah, I actually did that) unless I have a “shooting assignment.” But all of that is about to change.

Good morning, 2013!

excuses, excuses

hint, hint

Ok, I admit I have been avoiding the blog just a little. But try as I might to convert my not-quite-thesis into legible blog posts, I just can’t do it. I’m too close to it, even still. I’m working on a couple ideas for further posting.
OH!
and I may be submitting it to the AC research journal for publication!!!!!!!!! (!!!!!)
Additionally, much of my creative/photographic energy has, of late, been consumed by my two (!) photo-heavy art courses, Advanced Photography and Art Senior Conference. I’m currently writing my project proposal/intent for Conference and will post it when I have it completed. What I can say about it now, however, is that I am really passionate about the idea and the feedback I’ve gotten from other women has only furthered my dedication to the project. My prof, on the other hand, has been less than inspired when I’ve discussed it with him. Hopefully my statement will sway him and I’ll be permitted a Senior Show! *fingers crossed*

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update: work in progress

It’s been a busy few weeks and I’m finally settling back into campus life, but I haven’t quite figured out the best way to translate my Theatre/Photography essay to the blog.. In the state I turned it in, I think I rounded out, oh, twelve pages… Nobody wants a twelve page blog post. I’ll likely try to split it into digestible chunks. I should have plenty of quality time with my computer this weekend (#RAonduty) so you can expect something around then.

Currently working on: Sidewinder 2 – The Ecstasy of Gold as production photographer (and other varied assistant-y parts – AND I have screen time!!!)
Up next: Zoo Story – lighting designer and theatrical photographer
Classes: Advanced Photography; Art Senior Seminar (!)

manifestos and the theatrical debutante

I know I have been writing a lot about my theatre/photography paper, which is still all-consuming, but today I get a reprieve! Today I present to the world my manifesto. My professor never gave us a working definition of the Manifesto, so… Essentially, for the purposes of my senior seminar, the Manifesto is the debutante ball. It’s the declaration of oneself as artist to the world outside of Austin College.

Earlier in the semester, I had delusions of grandeur about what my manifesto could be. I wanted to stage a gallery show of my theatrical photography in our arena theatre. And with three weeks and no finals/holidays/RA issues/etc. to juggle, I would have. Then reality set in. I don’t have the time to stage a gallery – and even if I did, is that really the best indication of who I am as artist? I held on to that delusion til the last possible moment, collecting my old photographs, photographing a few of my fellow actors in a studio environment (which I had never done before!), and the like.

Then, last night, it all clicked. My manifesto certainly centers around the theatre and photography, but where do I really fit in? What piece was missing? Comfort Zones.  Where am I comfortable as a photographer?  Where am I comfortable as thespian? How do I take my insecurities in one field and transform them through the lens of the other? That’s really what it boils down to: I use my strengths in each field to give my work in the other field more depth. Having never done studio work and unsure of myself as a director, I selected strong actors as models – people I was comfortable having a dialogue with; a theatrical collaboration. By walking through headshots, audition monologues, basic acting warm-ups, and reliving past scene work, we created some beautiful photographs.

My presentation is this afternoon, so this evening I plan to upload the album, as well as my artist’s statement, to my many and varied platforms – flickr, facebook, google+, etc. edit: the google+ album is currently up so please take a look!

Then it’s two full days of writing. about my two passions. so. pumped.

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written on the wind

“Theatre is always a self-destructive art, and it is
always written on the wind.”  – Peter Brook

Still working away at the draft of my paper. I love it, but I think, at this exact moment, I would love a nap more… Such is the nature of finals week. right now, I just need to translate my spoken arguments to paper. Next up: RA duty night tonight and studying for my music exam/writing concert reviews – with an American Horror Story study break thrown in for good measure.
Alas, I persist until the boys return with dinner.

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Work in progress: the ethics of theatre photography

Ok, bear with me, guys: I am currently scrambling to organize/draft the behemoth that is my seminar paper, which mean I may be peppering the blog with particularly relevant quotes or bits of my analysis in the coming hours/days… I have a smattering of index cards with quotes and notebooks full of musings, so this should be fun.
if anyone reads this in a timely fashion and cares to discuss, I am all for it.

now, off I go!
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point of view

I know it has been a long time since I’ve posted much of anything, but I have been very busy: I have my campus style blog, a handful of research papers, a manifesto to realize, and a horde of actors to photograph, but I got a beautiful Nikon D3100 from my pappa for my birthday and it is utterly amazing! OH! And I’ve discovered my point of view as a photographer. I guess I should give the whole set up…

As a theatre major at my college, our senior seminar requires a ridiculous research paper on a special topic in theatre. Realizing my opportunity, I decided to focus on the relationship between theatre and photography. Two months ago, that’s all I had. A week ago, I didn’t have much else. Today, I know the meaning of life. The following is my rough abstract (due last week):

When photography is mentioned in the context of the theatre industry, it is often relegated to the trivial and incidental elements of the institution; yet when well executed, theatre photography can be a vital tool for practitioners of the theatre. More than just head shots and mementos, theatre photography serves to document the nuances of the theatre that words never can. This paper seeks to establish the importance of the photographer in the theatrical process by analyzing the proper tactics for a photographer to interact with both production and company in such a way that everyone may benefit.

We spent a great deal of the class talking about what this means and I suddenly realized that my paper is the Ethics of Theatre Photography. The ideal social contract , if you will. (And now I’m pulling in my PoliSci major. Look at me go!) If you are totally lost, I will happily explain it to you individually, or I’ll post the paper once I’m done.

And now, this might be a bit anticlimactic, but I come to my p-o-v. I’ve been struggling (self-imposed, of course) with figuring out what I want out of my medium and myself for some time and I think that I aim to capture the honesty in the visual world. I prefer the spontaneous, un-staged truth of life. This might make me a passive photographer to some, but I believe that I am just as active by seeking out the image – as opposed to creating it. I am, however, trying to broaden my horizons and my next assignment (once again, self-imposed) is to stage portraits of my fellow thespians. I am an awkward director, but I need the experience, the photos for my portfolio/manifesto, and they want the headshots. Hopefully I will be posting my thoughts on the actual experience soon. Which reminds me… I need to get a move-on.

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